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Wednesday, August 8th, 2007
12:58 am	Endings What are you supposed to do when something you have grown so accustomed to is gone? You're used to having that person around and you don't have to worry about how alone you feel without them. But I can't help but wonder, did it end to soon or not soon enough? What happens when we get what we think we want and its not what we expect? I know this is pathetic and I could have written it down on a piece of paper but I had the sudden urge to type on my laptop like Carrie Bradshaw... Current Mood: confused Current Music: some movie on tv (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 9th, 2006
3:26 am	I Feel Better Tonight I stayed at the commons building until 2 this morning playing fooseball and watching The 40-year Old Virgin. Good times, good times. Current Mood: content Current Music: Tina Turner (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 7th, 2006
8:18 pm	People I don't understand how people become themselves, I know it has to do with genetics and childhood but it seems so unfair that some people get the special innate ability to become friends with everyone they meet. I try and try but I will never be one of those people. Ever. I honestly would love to know the secret of these people, but I think it is just a natural thing they have that people are drawn to, something that I don't have. I'll never have...I'm always told I need to be happy for what I have but sometimes I don't think that is the way to live your life, aren't you supposed to make yourself a better person? Anyways, I just don't understand things sometimes... Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Push It -- Salt n' Peppa (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 29th, 2006
9:37 pm	Just so you all know that I'm not dead. Well, I am in Topeka and have been for about 2 weeks now. I have my own room and only two roomates who are pretty awesome so far. Aimee is from Utah and is absolutely crazy I already love her. Kat is from a small town and is an art major. We all bonded over our love of The 40-year Old Virgin. I hope we can stay friends since I am so bad at keeping in touch with people. My classes aren't so bad I have 3 business related classes, statistics, and a drawing class that is 2 hrs and 45 min long. I hate standing up so long but the instructor seems to like me so thats a plus. Right now I'm looking for a job because I have a credit card bill and a dog to pay for. I applied at like 5 places so far and 2 more today so hopefully I'll find something soon. It's really bad having the internet I get distracted by Myspace and MSN games to often. Anyways that is my update hopefully I'll feel like updating more often now that I have something to talk about other than complaining about work. Current Mood: mellow Current Music: Will & Grace (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 29th, 2006
2:54 pm	I really hate this place... Midpoint National can suck it...Those asswipes are going to pay for Roger to go to school...He is taking 1 CLASS (English) how the hell is that got anything to do with working in a fucking warehouse? I've busted my ass for 2 years around here going to school and working and I haven't even gotten a raise in a year...I really hate the way the women here are treated because if I was a guy I would be making more and getting my associate's degree paid for. I'm so glad I only have a month and a half left. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Jack Johnson -- Breakdown (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 28th, 2006
2:47 pm	Wake Up Call Last night at my art appreciation class I presented my project. I decided to create my dream bookstore but I wasn't really expecting much to come from it because I have always been hesitant about what I want to do. But now, especially after the comments of my classmates and teacher, I know that this is what I should be doing along with art. I kind of feel a sense of relief knowing that I can get what I want in two years or longer if I keep going at this pace. I've also realized that I have spent way too much time caring about what others think and trying to make them happy, especially my family. Now I know that I am more secure in going my own way and figuring things out on my own. I just wish sometimes that I had more support in my ventures instead of people trying to pull me down. I finally had my wake up call, I can do so much and I decide my future not anyone else. I am so sick of floating along, wishing and hoping for things, why shouldn't I make things happen? I really hope I can stick to everything I am saying because I think I will be a lot happier. Current Mood: rejuvenated Current Music: Age of Aquarius (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 20th, 2006
7:43 am	2 years down 2 to go Well, I'm done at the community college, at least until my summer classes start, but then I'll be done. I still get to participate in the graduation ceremony on thursday, though. I think I did pretty good in my classes but my biology final was a bitch, I hate anything related to science, except environmental science. I hate summer because all of my TV shows ended and most of them just pissed me off. People died, got kidnapped, and Will & Grace ended. I depressed...j/k. Al bought me a Nintendo DS with an updated Mario Bros. game, it kicks ass, so I'll probably spend all of my free time playing that and Sudoku. Anyways I'm just rambling so I'll stop now. Current Mood: awake Current Music: Gold Digger -- Kanye West (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 22nd, 2006
7:29 am	It's too damn early for this... Good Morning everyone, I hate saturday's because my body doesn't let me sleep in. Anyways I was just goofing around and I remembered, "Hey, I have a livejournal!" I wasn't that enthusiastic but what the hell I thought I should update for once. I am almost done at KCKCC, thank god, and I'm going to graduate in May but I still have to take two summer classes, which can't be all that bad because it's Philosophy and Art. Hopefully next year I'm going to Washburn but I don't know because I missed the deadlines for a lot of stuff. I could have gotten scholarships because of Phi Theta Kappa but I didn't know until it was too late. So, I was thinking that I might take a year off but I'm just afraid I will decide not to go back. I don't know what I'm going to do really. Well thats about it I guess. I'm gonna try to go back to sleep. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Gold Lion - Yeah Yeah Yeahs (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
6:38 pm	It's been so long... Not that it matters if I haven't updated in a while because I'm pretty sure everyone has kicked me off their friends lists. If you didn't then HELLO!!! I am in a good mood for once so I figured an upbeat post might be in order instead of a rant. I have officially moved out, Alvaro and I, we are now Johnson County SNOBS...not really. We live in Mission so that's not too bad. The only things I've been doing is going to school and work. I'm trying to find a new job but not having much luck so I'll probably stick with where I'm at, even though I'm hating the people there now. Moving out wasn't as great as I thought it would be (this is where you should get that fake shocked look on your face) I just feel even more cut off from everyone and I don't know if I'm ready to live with Alvaro because I don't want to be tied down and boring there is still a lot I want to do but I don't know how to tell him that. Anyways, that's clearly enough from me so I'm going to do some homework. Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Crazy Little Thing Called Love --- Queen (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 1st, 2006
8:42 pm	3rd Week of Classes and I've Already Skipped Oh, well. I just wasn't feelin it today. Instead Alvaro and I went to Perkins to get some food and decide what we wanted to do about the apartment. I think we are moving in on the 11th and 12th. Hopefully this is the right decision but I guess you don't know until you try. Anyways I've got to get back to work. Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Some Beyonce Song (Comment on this)
Monday, January 9th, 2006
2:54 pm	This New Year is Sucking So Far... Well, I was all set to move out then Alvaro informs me that he has decided not to move out because of financial reasons or AKA his mom. She talked him out of it, which does not suprise me. He told me he still wanted to move out but I just said fuck it because no matter what his mom will still have control of his life and the whole point of us moving out was to get some space from our families and be grown-ups but sometimes things don't work out that way. So right now we are taking a break mostly because I'm so pissed off at him right now and I don't know if I can ever forgive him for this. I really wanted that apartment and it was an awesome deal and now I'm going to be stuck living at home for the next couple of months. 9 days in and this year already blows. Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: Fall Out Boy (Comment on this)
Friday, December 30th, 2005
4:11 pm	I Need Some Coffee Well, work is soooo slow and I'm in charge because my boss is on vacation. I don't know what to tell everyone to do but oh well. Alvaro and I applied for an apartment the other day in Mission. It's 2 bedrooms and 545 a month including utilities and gas. It's a pretty awesome deal so hopefully he gets back to us soon. I really like the location and the price. Anyways I've got to get back to work. Current Mood: bored Current Music: End of the Road ---- Me First and the Gimme Gimme (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 17th, 2005
7:49 pm	A Very Boring Saturday I have been a bum all day today. I just haven't felt like doing anything. Alvaro and I were supposed to go see King Kong but he got called into work, which is fine because if we are going to move out he needs to work as much as possible. I really want to go see Chucky Lou tonight but I have no one to go with so I'm just going to stay at home and be a bum some more. Well, that was a boring update but it was an update. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Frosty the Snowman (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
10:33 am	Ms. Dependent I've been thinking a lot lately about how dependent I am on Alvaro and my family. Alvaro and I were talking about marraige (NO WE ARE NOT GETTING MARRIED) and I was trying to think of a maid of honor and bridesmaids, honestly I couldn't think of anyone who would want to be my maid of honor or a bridesmaid. I don't have a best friend, my sisters would both say no, and I really don't have anybody except Alvaro (which completely scares me). I don't know I've just been depressing the hell out of myself lately, I don't know what my problem is. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
12:40 pm	We're Going Down Swinging Well, I haven't updated in a while and really there is not much to say. I'm going to school and working, I went out of town last weekend and had a blast. I've got a lot to do for my classes in order to graduate by May and transfer to Washburn. Alvaro and I are looking for places and we'll probably end up living together in Topeka. I feel old and I hate making decisions. Anyways, maybe I'll start updating more in the near future. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Sugar, We're Going Down Swinging--Fall Out Boy (Comment on this)
Friday, September 16th, 2005
9:46 am	It's FRIDAY!!! I have been running myself into the ground this week. I'm ready to sleep and relax on Saturday and get away from work. I'm gonna start looking for a new job, I am so sick of the personal politics that go on at my work. I'm especially tired of 2 of my co-workers...I could go to UPS or FedEx and make 1.50 more than what I make now and I could get tuition assistance. The only cool thing going on is I'm learning to drive the forklift and the cherrypicker. Anyways, my class is about to start so I'm gonna learn some Accounting! Yay! yeah, not really. Current Mood: indifferent Current Music: That one band with that one song... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 31st, 2005
2:42 pm	Hurricane Katrina Or Hurricane Kiki as my niece put it. You would not believe all of the comments people have made about me being a bitch or a home wrecker. It's all in good fun...at least I hope it is. Besides the hurricane thing I got my car smashed into today up at Kckcc. I swear, everytime I get something halfway nice with running air and a CD player someone has to ruin it. I'm probably being dramatic but I wanted my new car, by new I mean a 92', to last me for awhile without looking all ghetto...I guess things never turn out like you hope. Look at the election for example, sorry I'm on a political kick again since I got back into my Econ class. Anyways, I'm gonna go back to work. Oh yeah. I forgot to mention that it was a stupid SUV...I hate SUV, gas guzzling, useless scraps of metal unless your a farmer or a construction worker. I don't know, whatever. If you want to put gas in I guess that's your problem. Current Mood: cranky Current Music: Maneater (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 21st, 2005
2:41 pm	Just Venting out some anger at work Some people are such idiots. I can only take so much until I snap and tell them how much of an idiot they are being. I am a patient and compassionate person but when you are purposely being annoying I become less patient. I literally want to shake this guy sometimes because he is such an ass. I told him about Stephanie and he was like, "She was being stupid so she probably deserved it." I CANNOT BELIEVE HE SAID THAT. What an ASS. I just wish I could tell him off but I'll probably get fired if I do. Oh, well. I think this made me feel a little better... Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: the printer printing (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 14th, 2005
2:41 pm	Just a Post I still cannot believe what happened to Stephanie, Gen, Sharon and Rachel. I just saw Stephanie at Cracker Barrel a week or so ago. I have nothing but good memories of her and the other 3 girls. I cannot believe this happened, it's insane. I just don't know what to say... Current Mood: shocked (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 7th, 2005
2:34 pm	Bored and at Work Since I don't have school anymore I realized I need a hobby...other than bowling. I was thinking of starting a scrapbook for all of the useless crap that I have. Or maybe I should do something more physical...lol, yeah I almost fooled myself. I should start working on my mosaic table so I can have it done by the time I finally move out. I am so mad I found such a great place but couldn't move out because I don't make enough money even working full time. I always seem to find good deals but I can never get them for myself. Okay, back to work... Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Weezer (2 Comments |Comment on this)